}:]

The Georgians were jealous of the Floridians.

Wut

Did she go wee wee?

Being Pushed

@ my dad's age and me being 27 - wut if I don't want your definition and you know it

Video Blog - 0/10

What I Should Do

I need to go to college or take voice lessons for $26.  I can do gymnastics for $5 but no bar now I think.  I like going to Disney each week, could try every other week.  I spend @ $20-$25 each time..  No money left for clothes.  I'm thinking I can do without the lessons.  I want an internship.  I might wait to do gymnastics.  I just want clothes!

Problem

My dad is born then so I have no handle handling the kinks, like him.  Why do you bring up that stuff?  Might as well bring up my mom's pinky nail.

Problem

I told you to stop.  They are threatening my daughter to be 1950 style.  I want 1957-1961.  I was @ to record..  I had to move my chair back.

Boy I'd better stop.

IMDb

ER: Ellen can't be more famous than everyone just cuz no one watches her

I didn't take the esteem to watch her til I was like 25. I mean I wanna be more famous.

STOP

Ellen I can be more famous and better than you meaning more famous.  Stop fucking @ me not watching TV.  I had a shit life.  Too much GOD DAMN SHIT HOMEWORK.

STOP

THERE'S AN ANNOYING LADY ON THE RADIO NOW TELLING ME TO DO SHIT

PROBLEM

GET THAT BEEP OUTTA HERE ELLEN IS THAT YOU MY FUTURE GRANDSON IS PRECIOUS TO MY DAD I AM NOT GONNA TAKE ANYONE'S HORSESHIT @ NELL BURTON STOP IT

IMDb

Tired

What

What's with all the tacky inhibiting noises I hear!  They affect me.  I wallow in shit.

Problem

So, the people in the theater were laughing hysterically and wanted me to feel bad.  Some people were mimicing me, and people were tapping my chair.  I squeezed my water sometimes to get back.  Don't think the movie really went well.  They're looking forward to feeling bad at home.  Like they were all laughing.  The girl whose mom hit me was like no it was my mom!  I didn't connect the idea, but I guess I was hungry and thirsty..  I wanted to use my money for clothes!  I will make more food, though.  Off to finish my Chick-Fil-A, now.  :|  I realize you think it's funny, see I stopped to write this.. not that I know if you'd know.

STOP

Ellen said she said it she read it.  How tacky can you be??  Come to me..

Unwanted Message-asdf

"Kayla Cross and Fort Lauderdale Eatz followed you"

HEY YOU *BEEP* I DON'T WANT THIS TO BE THE 1ST IMPRESSION OF WHERE I WAS BORN GO *BEEP* *BEEP* YOU UNUPHOLDED FOOL!!  WAS IT YOU ELLEN.. CUZ THAT'S NOT NICE.  LET'S DO SOMETHING JUST IN CASE FOR YOU!!  HA HA, WANT YER MAMMAY NOW?  THIS IS TAKING QUITE A BIT OF YOUR TIME

Problems

I don't want Ellen to enter my life like she's worth more than me and pull away my webcam.  She stole what belonged to others, feeling attractive.

Mobile

may or may not post

Are there any..

..good folk songs to sing??  Or like lyrical songs from a long time ago that everyone knows?

Also, yes, I care @ Sarah Brightman.  I mean, it's also @ older singers.  Really..

So..

I found I am just resting my voice.

Problem

I don't see where I went wrong, but I know Ellen is going to admit she did these mean things to me.

Why can't I seem to just ignore things?  I know I spent too much time posting @ it.

I see, this is happening instead of me getting famous and others paying for their attitude and bratiness.

2 Ways to See It

Yes, you are a bad person..

No, I have nothing left, apparently it didn't work out!  ..Fine, please, leave, and take your things with you and go find what you want.  (Fine, please, in a nice way.. part of the Enlgish language to uphold against those who ruin it.. :(  )

People Being Afraid and Not

People are scared of how they treat me bc of what others will think but not afraid to hurt me..

Ugh

outta shower

I'm so sorry Ellen when I hit that bottle, my true feelings hit.  I was afraid of this.  I think the experimenter, I'm sure I saw them take that out on you.  I didn't mean it.  Hope you are okay.  I just know you did all that stuff and for some reason thought it was okay for me to waste my life.

SOMEONE CALL 911 AND TELL THEM WHAT'S BEEN HAPPENING

I WANT MY FAMILY AND OLD LIFE BACK

STOP IT

I already said you were the 1s being bad to me.  I am just trying to live my life.  What's Ellen all in my face?  1950 girl Ellen 1950 girl Ellen is 65 years old.  How do you like a taste of your own medicine?

STOP

Ellen this is bad.  In your language, I'd calculate it at trash.  It just is your bratty messages to me online and such.

Oh Wow

Ellen see you participate.  Looks like you're not so much now.  A mixed message.

Problem

Stop threatening my emotional future.  You are a sicko.  Just go crawl in your hole!!

Problem

What are you waiting for now Ellen?  Quit being mean!  I'm not reading into your insulting "messages" or "trash."  You want me to remember the Enter key and think of you.  I didn't do anything.  What's your problem?  I am from where Johnny Depp is from more than you!  Quit being a brat.  Quit being a brat..  Want me to hit something just cuzza you?

IMDb

You're just wasting my time going through shit.

STOP IT YOU

DON'T YOU DARE TEST ME ON ME TYPING YOU SELFISH BEAST AND BRAT

Problem

She's also fooling around.  What about the Enter key?  You just got shit.

Problem

Ellen used the word Enter in her Tweet.  What a guilty * * *.  I might think of that when I type.  GO AWAY I USED A LOT OF FORCE.  YOU MADE ME MAD.

OK

WHO DID THIS

Problem

They said I can't sing a solo.  Go away.  Leave me alone.  They said they are what they are with God.  Stop making me type your stupid messages.

Stop

Just get ridda Ellen?  I deserve to not be treated like this.  Ow, my left hand is hard to type.  It feels clumped together.

I said leave me ALONE.  Don't you dare talk to me like that, coy.

 ELLEN THE FAKE BABY *BEEP*

Problem

I am not trusting any of you.

Problem

I need to relax.

Problem

Someone outside made it sound like I was m.. some worthless person

I've been hitting and throwing things.  It's Ellen.  Go get her, that vicious animal, I know she DID IT!

punching bag..

Problem

Ellen lies. She thinks I need to look bad.

STOP

They won't stop playing with me and I have things to do!

STOP

YOU GODDAMN SINNER I DON'T GIVE A FUCK @ ELLEN

STOP

Something else is going on.

I need something to hit.

STOP

It's different again.

STOP

Problem

My PAGE LOADS DIFFERENTLY NOW YOU BEEP STOP ACTING LIKE YOU'RE STRONGER

Problem

Why does this experimenter keep talking to me.. pretending to be happy I look Chinese now.

What happened?  I just used a curse word.  Is that why I see a therapist??

I feel the urge to get in a fight..

I need to get off this pill.  I wanna live with my fam.

So, I wanna talk @ something.

I felt so mad I slammed my metal-legged chair and hit my nice desk which holds the computer screen and speakers.  It just seems natural, maybe bad.  I woke up tired with nothing to eat.  I don't wanna do this.  I guess that was another trial and error situation.  This person is denying what I said, and I don't wanna hurt them but am kinda here to tell the world @ it..

Problem

You *BEEP* YOU *BEEP* you just want me to not make it online for "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" with Ellen.

Problem

The messages won't stop and I'm being teased @ not writing them all the time.

Word Captchas

So, what @ that?

STOP

I DON'T GIVE A GODDAMN WHAT ELLEN WANTS

Problem

Stop watching me.

Problem

STOP why did I hear a click on either side of my room?  Stop acting like I did something.  This shit has gone on for 8½ years.  I can revel in it if I like, but this is just stupid.  I am not stupid.

I SAID I DON'T CARE @ LAST WORD STOP IT

SHUT UP

STOP THINKING @ THAT BOY FROM ENGLAND YOU GAY TWIT

Over My Back

I feel as though my parents will make my future daughter not have fair skin.  Must wait til 40.

Problem

I don't care what you say, Ellen, you having the last messages is retarded and I don't want to unravel it.  I believe the last 1 was a purple spider up in my room..

And there it is

The experimenter is droning on as though I just did something and gave a mean message @ the boy from England, said like Kate Bush in a tacky way, "You bet that's Dad dead."  I don't think he has problems with my dad, but he's different.

Problem

Why does this experimenter keep commenting on my private thoughts!

Problem

This experimenter later in the dust is o well no one's perfect I don't GIVE A CRAP @ a mixed Chinese family..

Wht

Why are people from the Southeast so coy?

Should I consider not cursing?

I thought wow maybe today will work out..  and someone who did it to me thinks I owe them something.

Sorry

I don't mean to be so mean so much..  I just wanted to say that I don't really acknowledge it as something I'd do to anyone.  You just think @ my kids.  Well, just get it out in private.

See

Unfortunately, it looked stupid.

I DON'T NEED YOUR REASSURANCE

GIVE ME BACK MY LIFE - I CAN SAY WHAT I WANT!!

Problem

Stop being gay everyone in the world all the time saying I am bad all the time.  Go FUCK IT.

If you don't curse

I mean to say I don't give a damn if Depp and Ellen wanna offer me a chance for being mad at what THEY did but not mad otherwise and ruining a household appliance as a memoir.  I don't give a fuck even if you said it.

What, now?

You did something to me, I didn't curse right at you, just @ something.

Ugh, what if they're mad I cooked something my mom got in the freezer she leaves there a long time?

Wow

Look how these famous people think they're still the kids!

Problem

Experimenter, you think your suggestions are okay.  Ya'll stop reveling in me as tacky like an annoying old best friend.s

Wow, so who thinks I'm bad?  NO!  You start everything..  I just get mad at it.

HEY YOU

SHIT UP YOU *BEEP*  You think I made my dad fat!

Problems

My oven has finally stopped taking the Bake sign off when reaching the point it's ready to heat.  Really, Ellen|Depp, I don't give a crap.  I can get upset on the inside if I wanted @ you being mean to me things like eating and sewing all of a sudden, starting to cook "in Florida."

My dad was looking at me so tackily and annoyingly.  I want him to take me to the Y.

"Not a Chance.."

What are the chances of me being in a movie with Johnny Depp?  Should I consider myself an actor and model??  I wouldn't want to act like with someone else unless it were something cool.  I mean, yea, but like I might have priorities, now.

Song

Listening to "Veruca Salt" makes me in tune with how younger kids are treated..  Danny Elfman seems open to older kids musically.  Well, teens, these days.

I would be a great foil as Violet.  I so hope they make another 1 and I can be that.  You'd have the prize role reserved for someone else.  }:]  Here we go again.

So, what's the difference-

b/w being nice to someone all the time as opposed to messing up, under pressure?

18 Hours of Sleep

Dream

My dad carried me like 2 or 3 times maybe and it felt like m.. he tried to squeeze me and stuff and I didn't feel anymore.

I already said I don't like that.  Why does our world center on this?  I think it's a bit different than touching someone.  There apparently are different ways of touching someone..  It's funny when you dream of these things at older age.

Out of interest sake, I never liked being held, essentially.  People acted like I was mini and submissive.  It wasn't friendly, and plus I'm ½ Chinese.  I was very mad not to get proper attention from others as a kid, very mad, didn't talk @ it maybe as much as I was upset @ not being like younger than other kids ever.

In the dream, I went places with other kids.

Problem

Ellen, I will not feel I deserve to be punished for violent reactions, not violent actions.  I'm feeling pretty annoyed.  You know, I would never do anything like this.  I have needs that are not being met.  Those needs include like having a clean room.. I dunno what else.  Oh yes, a place to go.  To leave my room and the house for organized activity.  To be on top of things and not under any muck.

Question

Someone on IMDb tipped me off that other people are talking to me and people connected through people who shouldn't be connected.  It doesn't seem that good for me.  You all just got hold of some pictures I had at a certain age having lost a good 1|s..  I totally didn't "do" anything wrong.

TV

Carrie Underwood - The Sound of Music live - @ 20-30 minutes of the 3 hours

That is SO good!  I felt comfortable when trying to sing with the beautiful parts of the orchestra.

She is so good and same with the rest!  She was so beautiful and amazing and good!  I like how good she is at sliding to different notes!  My teacher said not to, but oh well.  It was very beautiful and ringy and Christmasy!

Hey

Ellen, "Touch my body" makin' me feel like I'm from New Orleans.

Ooh yea!

..AND - TOUCH - MAH - BOD EH

HOT

This is why I'm hot, This is why I'm hot
This is why, this is why, this is why I'm hot

This is why I'm hot, This is why I'm hot
This is why, this is why, this is why I'm hot

I'm hot cuz I'm fly
You ain't cuz you not
This is why, this is why, this is why I'm hot

I'm hot cuz I'm fly
You ain't cuz you not
This is why, this is why, this is why I'm hot

MIMS MIMS mims mims

"..Pittsburgh Slim?"

HA

Did anyone see Ender's Game?

Listening to Girls Kiss Girls..

Spoilers

Witches!

So, yes..

I'm looking for the audition links.  I found 1 where I send in an address with a headshot + a page for my resume..

another 1

link

I feel a bit put off by it now, like someone thinks I'm tacky.  I did not have a weird "dream" knowingly.  I already realized I wasn't good enough for this..