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I'm fine, but

m.. more times than I can remember, which is an average of 5 or 6, usually 1 big 1.  Like my female thing.

Me he he he he

Why does Jackie look so nervous when performing for the world?..  I can't wait.

Nitey!

Problem

Why does Ellen waste her precious time assuming I do have a real "attitude?"  I just don't know how to react to some things.

Reporting In

Rough Day, mad that people care about me less than Ellen DeGeneres, upset @ messing up with Ellen.  Why would she react to my sorrow as though I shouldn't say it and am bad for wanting to be seen as a good person?  I only was mad at the hurting me.  I learned to ignore it, somehow, more.  It's been rough, though, today.  Sorry..  I didn't start anything.  I was just wanting to watch her show and was at my computer, but I missed it as of now.  I mean, other kids are given more support and they are mature to know what matters but lack self-esteem and a real ego..  They are let alone while I am tortured.  think @ it..

Weird Twisted Messages

With other messages I don't like, I wanted to ignore them.  I'm not gonna play a game where Daddy gets ***.

Sleep

I wanted sleep.  I'm gonna shower and get dressed and packed for tomorrow and sleep that way.  I almost would rather stay home and maybe just see Frozen again.

Problem

How can I enjoy online when the way things load are affected by another person experimenting on my life!  Maybe my life means nothing ultimately, not with the experiment.  I'm always so mad, and they are so *** like my dad.

What I'm Doing

Sometimes, I am in the process to reacting to the shithole of an area I live in, even though it's like an hour or so away from Disney World.

Problems

Well, when I post a problem, Ellen gets another mean message to me.  Ellen is so mean, why is this??  She acts like I'm ungrateful.  She is being tacky and thoughtless..  I look forward to seeing Sarah Brightman's concerts, but instead my mom and I start talking @ problems..  Ellen would be mad we feel good @ ourselves, jealous of our successful lives in Florida and "New Orleans."  She won't admit that's so, and she won't just forget @ it, too.

What kind of messages, like threatening to make my future daughter stupid and have *** with a babysitter like she's shit.  Then my mom did something I forget.  What other threats?  Well, stuff like that, stuff today that would suddenly affect me later, stuff they said they did by paying too much attention to me.  I am thankful for my life but feel part dead.  Sometimes, I've hit stuff.  I'd like to keep it that way.  You never know what a stranger will do to a loved 1.

New Video

New Video of Me Singing

Schedule

My life has been so emotionally and timewisely overbearing, so I have missed some of you on TV, Ellen, so maybe I'll just say I might miss some until my life comes to order.

(Now, I already have to sleep soon.  The weekend comes, and I may have an okay time then and watch you, though.  Have a good time on the show, will try to catch the bulk of each show.  Like, I had stopped after a bigger main part.  Excited to see how it goes.  Not sure what else I should be doing but have goals for older age than right now.  Not so much a TV person as I wish I could be.  I sort of now blog, sing, dance.  Work out the rest of my body, cook.  So, today, I watched it doing breakfast.  Woke up after noon.)

Not Making Sense of Something..

Why did my Gramma kiss my cheek?  She was rubbing into the bone a lot.  No, I'm sorry, I don't do that.  I've been kissed on the cheek before, but nothing happened then.  All I can say to those who find it a big deal when reading this that maybe she wanted me stronger.  Why would it though look indian?  I'm waiting for your outbursting reaction.

New Videos

New Videos of Me Singing

What She Doesn't Do..

You know what my teacher Ginny does in private singing, doesn't click at all with familiar bonds of my talent being good..

TV

Ellen on Turkey Day

I watched yesterday's, and she seemed really nice and preppy.  My mood was so-so.

Facebook

Girls by the Pier

There was a lonely girl who'd made it on her own her whole life named Christina Ann.  She was 28.  Then, there were other girls, mostly ages like 20 and 25, plus the slew of the younger generation age 15 or 16.  Christina ended up taking care of the younger ones, the tweenies.  Christina patted a young girl age 12 and said things would turn out fine.  She looked away and found herself off with her friends.  A cute girl named Abigail who was 17 was telling the younger 1s @ a shark in the water she supposedly saw.  Christina believed her sincerity but knew she would probably not see 1 if she herself looked into the water.  Some of them were truly dazzled by the presence of a woman named Ellen.  She approached Christina, and she almost seemed to jump in a way.  "No, come here," she heard a voice say.  She turned around, and no one was there.  It was time to load the ship that would take them to Spain, alas.  A girl named Chloe Grace was aboard and she seemed nice and got some popular attention.  She lay on a chair and talked to the people around her genially.  Then, a girl named Peyton Rose was there who led others in mischief.  Christina looked @ for Ellen and also another lady named Rose Red.  She found Rose Red, and she said, "So, how are things?"  Rose Red quickly glanced at her and said, "Fine, fine."  Okay, she thought.  It was a chilly night and Christina had a bag with her holding a sleeping bag, under which she made her abode.  Was it almost Christmas?  She woke up early and got her breakfast.  "Fine day," someone said.  "Oh, yes," said Christina.  The kids whined as they were waken up.  Some of the 25 year olds were there for breakfast.  In a matter of days, they arrived in Spain.  Year was 1880.  They all set up home.  The main character Christina started out as a nanny and maid but then was given a scholarship in ballet and 1 day made it as an actress and went off had had a family life, as she tried to search for people she once knew, though she never knew if anyone really needed her ever.

I will continue

To write what I write.

Anyway

Hope everything is going good, though, to Ms. Ellen.

Mean

Yes, Ellen is mean.  I don't have to do silly things in my life for her.  She offers hersle to otehsr.

So

It doesn't seem to matter, just a suggestion, but it's not funny if it's just a suggestion.  Is it just certain people, and why?  I just like giving names.  You all just are poking at me for the N word thing.  I don't like this, cuz I don't mind but don't want to fall down a path.  I had awoken up to different signs, the way the cars outside drive.  Who did it?  I don't know what to do!  Such a rude awakening.

My Therapist

She illustrated for me the fact that kids think it's better to suck up and not use names in my story from real life.  That makes me want to avert the fact.  I don't know what to do.  They are not English like they think and neither am I.  I can't do what they do.  It's not like I attack with me as a character.

Both

Johnny Depp and Marilyn Monroe have prominent historical based people in their past family.

Help! 8|

8|  Apparently, the next video shows the pilgrims of Ma. after dying also on land they got help from the indians somehow.

Video of Pilgrims on Ship =]

Something That Won't Cut the Cake for Me

If you wanted me to write a story named from real people and make them all kids.  I would do it, but it seems like a punishment.  You know what|how I'm sayin'?  Cuz you don't seem to like when I make them adults.  I thought it was the fact it was a story.  I dunno, it was fun naming characters Ellen.

Dream

Hard to remember.  Were there long orange crystals and a little girl who was supposed to be Sarah Brightman?  I have not dreamed @ her, but I've had dreams @ Ellen until I hit my head.  I don't remember, lots of people.  I did some stuff in the dream.

Problem

I seem to have messed up with Ellen.

My Dad

So, you'll find I'm not much but have a diverse ethnic background?

Shopping for My Xmas

Color: Light Blue-Green
Size: Medium
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Size 17
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Black and White
Size Medium
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Titanic Days

Ellen, how do you feel @ that show?  I agree things were stressful, and it's hard to regulate our weight.  Kate Winslet was from England.. Celine Dion French Canadian .. we have Mr. serious.

Ugh!  Ellen, I'd love to show you what life was like!  All the glitter and modern spirit for the 1st and successfully only time.  Agh!  I need to do something @ my wardrobe.  My mom is getting me Sears clothes.

No, you didn't.

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Wel come to the land of Oz and Munchkin land!

Calculating

I did sleep in for a play.

Babying

The media is taking to babying Ellen.  Wow, that must be comforting.  Is it sucky, though??

Opinion

Can you imagine making up a person is like a rubber body?  I was overwhelmed @ Frozen and imagined Ellen as a tan body in the snow.  Something else, too..  Anyway, @ that, like I said, I do believe it's okay but Ellen doesn't and I try not to do it, but I didn't literally imagine her in pain, like a cartoon, not a good idea, though.  I had a rough day, shoulda waited.  Maybe, my opinion should come out.  Sorry, Ellen, everyone loves you.  Well, you know, good people mostly.  I'll try to fix myself.  I stopped, it sorta was what was in my head.  I felt as thought Disney made me Anna..  Guess I wasn't prepared for making a lasting impression.  I suffered my whole life in black hair I didn't want, and it was black cuz it was sorta plain like white and in the background..  Not funny because of the events that occurred, okay.